Sooo, theres this guy that I like, I'm a bit on the fence of I don't give a shit and it would be nice to go out with him. Bleh.
And he's all "I dont know what I want, anyone would be technically wasting time blah blah blah"
But, when I asked him on a date he said yes, and that he would hold to it because he was a "man of his word"...... MEH.
Lie, lie, and lie.
Maybe I'm over-reacting.... I just think that if he lost interest or whatever he could have been polite enough to say so, I completely understand losing interest or whathaveyou. I dislike not knowing where I stand, I try to be upfront with people as much as I can (so long as it doesnt get me fired).
Is it to much to ask for something to work out right in the dating scene? Really?
I dont think Im that bad of a person. I have some good qualities right? Fuck. Rabble-rabble-rant-rant.....
So, lets rephrase this shall we. I like him. At this point its no more than a friend, hes funny and cool. Aside from being dishonest. So, I will be upset with him until I find another distraction.
Im being stupid.... fuck fuck fuck. I have to at least be nice to him. If I get the position in the shoe department he'll be my boss. So on that note, dating him is a definite bad no-no.
Need a distraction. Are my standards that high? Must have job, must not be super clingy/ needy, and a little cute doesnt hurt. (Its not superficial, common science, attraction must work on all levels, Im not asking for Vin Diesel, just maybe boy-next-door cute).
Yay for a personal ad.
Yesterday was officially one year that Ive been single. Im tired of it. I dont need a relationship to validate my existence, but this existence alone is miserable. Granted Ive got the best friends I could ever ask for, but Im always the 3rd/5th wheel. Im tired of being the angry emo LOL.
Need to figure a way to meet guys without it being from work (cuz then if it doesnt work out like the above guess who you still have to see on a daily basis), and most guys from the internet are creepy and just uber weird (even by my standards).
Damn you high school and the awkward, repressive social situations.
Meh!
My head hurts from the circles of WTF-and why cant one thing work out right? Perpetual coencentric circle after circle. Im creating my own temporary little hell.
...... Might get into the alcohol a little early.....
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